It's not easy to forget someone.. Especially when you miss that someone.

It's not easy to forget someone, especially when you miss her/him. Thank you.. I wish that next year you are happy with your life too. Study hard and smart OK? Cause, SPM you have to pass sejarah to get certificate. I think so.. I guess we will never be together, haha... But I hope we are still friend. And remember, I will be there if you needed me =D

I remember...

I remember, your old status "im scared if i say i like you then you dont like me then what should i do?".. I din't ask you, What should you do if he like you?

Well.. today, hm, like normal day lo =( so bored. No new update =D

Today no mood =(

Today no mood, wake up oso quite early, around 12.12. Today sis come back from KL, she bought me a cloth. Well.. today just no mood lo.. play game oso keep losing, really.. haiz.. Now, felt like wan to sleep. But still early la.. just 10.31 only. I got a lot of times, but I'm lazy to study my law -.-. Wan clear my table oso I lazy.. aih, what to do... AHH! Just no mood!

Some say it's not over till it's over, I guees it's really over now, There's something I gotta say before I let you go, Listen.

I guees... I wish, I hope.. I won't be like Taeyang in wedding dress. Seeing the girl that I like, wearing wedding dress, walking with someone that isn't me. But, of cos not see "You" with someone wearing wedding dress la, you still young ba.. I mean I don't want to see that the person I like to be with someone else. But.. if you don't want to accept, then I respect your decision, your choice.



Today is a special day, Today is my mak(guardian, but like my mother already) pass away 100 days. My parents and I were invited to her house by her sister, my ngah. We 8.30 like that arrive at her house, there's a lot of memories there... Looking at the room, change a lot, thinking back my old times.. where I was still small, she took care of me like her own son. Thinking that "How could you left so early... There's a lot of thing I still want to do, I never have the chance to repay you..".

My mother and my ngah chat about a lot of things, about her... I cried, I miss her. Every time I think about her, I always ask myself "Why I didn't stay at her home this Raya?". This Raya she did invite me to stay at her home for few days, but I rejected... This Raya is the last Raya I will ever celebrate with her.. This Raya she did alot of things she never did before. Taking pictures and asking me to wear Raya cloth.. I should have known, why she is so eager to do such things..
The time where I go in her house.. felt so weird, Without her.. really.. There's still a lot of thing I want to do with her.. That's why my mom say "appreciate people beside you, no matter who they are, cause you don't know when they are gone"

My last hug with her. First day of Raya 2010, September 9. She was gone on September 19, Where I receive the news that morning, and crying.



















Well, thinking when I was still small, I haven't seen my Mok since like 2009, about a year already didn't seen her. She is married and have children already.
When I was small, my Ngah always bring me and her nephew go pizza hut and eat.. go parkson and play, walk walk.
My Mok would also bring me going out to take a walk and few on. There are alot of thing I don't remember already.
My Usu always bring me go to the beach, my Anjang would bring me to funfair.
Then lastly, my Mak, the closest to me, every sunday she would bring me go to old pasar to walk and buy things.
The last thing I regret was... I never did have the chance to talk to her, and accompany her.
It's been 5 years I didn't go to her house and stay.. This is the 5th years. A lot of people change, There are few that I remember. I saw Anjang, and he is old already.. We just talk for awhile.
If she was alive, what will happen? Will I remember her? When she pass away only I remember... I want to say, I'm sorry Mak.. If I ever disappoint you, or make you sad.

I never wanna give up..

I never want to give up, you know or not? Everyday I ask myself "Why I don't dare to find you?"... If I don't want to give up, would you give me a chance?? I think "no", cos.. if you would give me a chance, you won't let me wait for you.. I want to ask you something... Is becoming friend what you really want?
You write
"if u really wanna to give up....

i dont mind....

is ur choice........

not mine.."

Then.. what is your choice?

I don't know what are you thinking..

Haiz.. I really don't know what are you thinking, sometimes you make me happy, sometimes you make me sad. You write that your regret, you write that you want me back, but now... you didn't reply me. I was broken once, please don't break me twice. You break my heart once, telling me that becoming friend was the best choice afterall.. Making me fall for you and telling me goodbye?? Looking at your blog yesterday, seeing what you write, you say that you are sad, your not happy.. you want me to forgive you and give you a chance, now I have given you, but yet, I'm still waiting for you to reply my message.. My mind ask me to give up, but my heart ask me to stay. I really want to give up, tell me when you need me. I don't wanna be dinosaur forever, cause I wanna be somebody important to you, I wanna be the one that you care. I am also afraid to love you, cause i'm afraid that I will hurt you. But now, I hope you give me a chance to love you right now, I don't care what will happen in the future. I just want to love you right now, every minute! every second! If I did something wrong, please tell me the reason. Don't kept it quietly in your heart. So that I can change, and tell you that I'm sorry.

Wow wow wow! Today 1++ like that wake up, 3++ like that eat and 4++ go out, go pasar malam help mom awhile, then go to marriott find jessnie to take korina contact lens, someone say saw me, but I didn't saw her. Then go to korina house, she invite me and seng yong to celebrate christmas, at there around 5++ until 6++. Then go back seng yong house change car then go to boulevard play Tekken 6 until 10, then bath and now updating blog lu.. just like that =D simple eh!??

Tang yuan

=D Today eat tang yuan, later I eat. Anyway, HON so lucky, play 2 days only lose 2 round and dc 1 round cos of the blackout. Haiz, can win one, but dc T.T. O well, anyway my PSR now 1705, if no dc 1710.. but sadly.. haiz. Nvm bah, 1705 oso can le.

Holiday is killing me la... everynight late late sleep, everyday late late wake.. I'm gonna be vampire. And then holiday like becoming more skinny.. I don't want leh.. I wan fat a little =D

Mouse

Do you wanna be a mouse forever? Cause let me tell ya something, I don't wanna be dinosaur forever.

Well, ytd isn't a lucky day. HON keep losing, PSR is dropping. Haiz... Oh and today, 19/12/2010 going to hear law at 8.00 a.m. So early, adu!

Maybe

Maybe you didn't change. Maybe I didn't know you well enough.

Well! two days didn't update.. last thursday I my friends go boulevard then go parkson. First go boulevard play tekken 6 then register listen law with George. After that, we go parkson walk walk. Nothing to see, cause its thursday. Well for friday, nothing much. Just keep playing HON and online, HON psr keep maintain.. 1663-1669, aduh..

You changed

Hmm... you changed, that's all I can say. Maybe becoming friend was the best choice afterall. And congratulation to you, hope you are happy with your life.

Well! For today.. I ended my SPM =D, 3.15 p.m. Oh well, had fun today. Playing HON, got lose got win. Tomorrow going to boulevard to register listening law with George. Hope to play tekken 6 with Ming =D. That's all for now

It's been so long

Well, it's been so long I did not check my blog. I quit and now im back. Well. nothing for my come-back post right now. Right now, i'm just waiting for tomorrow to arrive to end my SPM. That's all.