I guees... I wish, I hope.. I won't be like Taeyang in wedding dress. Seeing the girl that I like, wearing wedding dress, walking with someone that isn't me. But, of cos not see "You" with someone wearing wedding dress la, you still young ba.. I mean I don't want to see that the person I like to be with someone else. But.. if you don't want to accept, then I respect your decision, your choice.
Today is a special day, Today is my mak(guardian, but like my mother already) pass away 100 days. My parents and I were invited to her house by her sister, my ngah. We 8.30 like that arrive at her house, there's a lot of memories there... Looking at the room, change a lot, thinking back my old times.. where I was still small, she took care of me like her own son. Thinking that "How could you left so early... There's a lot of thing I still want to do, I never have the chance to repay you..".
My mother and my ngah chat about a lot of things, about her... I cried, I miss her. Every time I think about her, I always ask myself "Why I didn't stay at her home this Raya?". This Raya she did invite me to stay at her home for few days, but I rejected... This Raya is the last Raya I will ever celebrate with her.. This Raya she did alot of things she never did before. Taking pictures and asking me to wear Raya cloth.. I should have known, why she is so eager to do such things..
The time where I go in her house.. felt so weird, Without her.. really.. There's still a lot of thing I want to do with her.. That's why my mom say "appreciate people beside you, no matter who they are, cause you don't know when they are gone"
The time where I go in her house.. felt so weird, Without her.. really.. There's still a lot of thing I want to do with her.. That's why my mom say "appreciate people beside you, no matter who they are, cause you don't know when they are gone"
My last hug with her. First day of Raya 2010, September 9. She was gone on September 19, Where I receive the news that morning, and crying.
Well, thinking when I was still small, I haven't seen my Mok since like 2009, about a year already didn't seen her. She is married and have children already.
When I was small, my Ngah always bring me and her nephew go pizza hut and eat.. go parkson and play, walk walk.
My Mok would also bring me going out to take a walk and few on. There are alot of thing I don't remember already.
My Usu always bring me go to the beach, my Anjang would bring me to funfair.
Then lastly, my Mak, the closest to me, every sunday she would bring me go to old pasar to walk and buy things.
The last thing I regret was... I never did have the chance to talk to her, and accompany her.
It's been 5 years I didn't go to her house and stay.. This is the 5th years. A lot of people change, There are few that I remember. I saw Anjang, and he is old already.. We just talk for awhile.
If she was alive, what will happen? Will I remember her? When she pass away only I remember... I want to say, I'm sorry Mak.. If I ever disappoint you, or make you sad.
Well, thinking when I was still small, I haven't seen my Mok since like 2009, about a year already didn't seen her. She is married and have children already.
When I was small, my Ngah always bring me and her nephew go pizza hut and eat.. go parkson and play, walk walk.
My Mok would also bring me going out to take a walk and few on. There are alot of thing I don't remember already.
My Usu always bring me go to the beach, my Anjang would bring me to funfair.
Then lastly, my Mak, the closest to me, every sunday she would bring me go to old pasar to walk and buy things.
The last thing I regret was... I never did have the chance to talk to her, and accompany her.
It's been 5 years I didn't go to her house and stay.. This is the 5th years. A lot of people change, There are few that I remember. I saw Anjang, and he is old already.. We just talk for awhile.
If she was alive, what will happen? Will I remember her? When she pass away only I remember... I want to say, I'm sorry Mak.. If I ever disappoint you, or make you sad.
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